This is a 3 parts series of entries about the meaning of humility, surrender and the only thing your heart is asking you to do. This is Part 3. Find parts 1 and 2 in the links below:
The problem of the world today is that we all have said "yes" partially to God, we have said "yes, you can love the word through me but we'll do it my way". As we create more and more solutions from our own ways, we find more (in quantity as well as complexity) issues and barriers to overcome next. As the number of issues increase and we cling to our ways to let God love the world through us, the issues start to form a mass of one simple problem formed by many complex problems. This mass is the crisis the world is going through today. I think it can be defined as follows:
We can't go any further down or any lower than this. Think about it, we have reached a point where we think that people have to "earn" and "deserve" the right to live!! If we want food, clean water, clean air and live in harmony with the rest of humanity and the rest of life itself, we have to "earn" it and "deserve" it, which is, we have to enslave ourselves to do something we find absolutely purposeless to create false value in our societies and be able to survive, as if we could!!. Once life is conceived and a baby is born, they have to learn how to 'earn and deserve' their spot in the world. Being alive is not enough of a fact to deserve the entitlements that life brings with it (nurturing food, harmony in and with nature, the safest and greatest of the inventions of the human heart). What can be more dysfunctional than that??
With the economic crisis of the last couple of years, governments worry, among many other things, about how to create jobs. It does not matter what kind of job, just jobs. The jobs of today are all vulnerable to be replaced by technology. People worry about that. This is how bad things are!! People prefer to do the job of a machine every day for many years because it seems to be the only plausible option we have to live!! I believe we have reached the bottom of the barrel in terms of the dysfunctionality of humanity today and that is the trigger of the massive "awakening" we are seeing as well. Having hit the bottom, some people are surrendering ("a determination not to contribute to the messiness of the world by adding our own false self projects to it" - Fr. Thomas Keating), others are on their way to surrender or "humbling" themselves (all the economic, political, social, environmental and spiritual movements popping up everywhere) and many are still completely unaware of their self betrayal, still clinging to their own ways, still asking for mechanical jobs, committing suicide because rent can't be paid, stealing for money, killing (others and themselves through many different activities) for money.
As humanity goes deeper in the exploration of its collective betraying self, or as humanity moves in mass to the bottom of the barrel, God moves to the surface of earth through those who have decided to surrender to his love so that he can love the world through us. At the individual level, surrendering does mean to stop the doing and engage in being. It is challenging, "being" is often not the way we do things, is often not the way we love, we don't like being. But in the process of letting God heal us and surface in our lives, there is no much you can do other than identifying what aspect of your life you need to surrender next. Eventually, and I don't know when that happens, you have let God be you, become you, bring about the real and honest you that loves you, enough that He can express his love through you in the world. Then you start doing again and this doing becomes your work, as opposed to your job. This doing is irreplaceable by anything or anybody else. It is a doing where the heart commands and the mind acts in alignment and submission to the heart. In today's world, the mind acts by itself in complete misalignment with the heart, even when we're doing something that we think we really care and moves us deeply, the decision comes from the mind alone. You have experienced it yourself in your weight loss journey: You deeply care about your well being, you truly want to be healthy and look good and your mind says, "ok, let's do a diet , let's buy a supplement, let's take some tablets".
When you surrender and let God make His way to the surface of your body, or in non-Christian words, when you let the truest and honest version of the you that loves you make its way to the surface of your body, you stop the unnecessary suffering. Example: If you planned a trip to X and you're very excited about it, you have your schedule of what your doing during your trip, where you're going, who you're visiting, you did all the shopping, have your tickets ready, all your bookings done, everything on time, all vaccinations, leave home with plenty of time to make it safely to the airport only to find an accident on your way that would make you miss your flight. Then, if surrendered, first you probably wouldn't have planned so much in the first place but assuming you still do because is part of your journey of healing or whatever, if surrendered, missing the flight would not cause the pain it normally does. You missed the flight, there is a reason for it, you still had a not very positive reaction, what of my old ways where acting when that happened?? oooh I see...this is why I did it!!!
When you surrender the kind of suffering that comes from the outside is significantly reduced. You stop worrying about many things that seemed crucial before and also, you find more complex issues that make you worry about things that seem more important. You stop worrying about your partner's hair in the shower and start worrying about extreme hunger in Africa or child abuse. Eventually you recognize that these more important issues don't cause you the same type of suffering anymore. The issues are still there and you may still consider them extremely important, but you don't suffer...as in, you don't go nuts trying to make something happen anymore, you don't let your false self contribute its projects. A new kind of suffering is born. Your new suffering concerns to you and you only now. You still care about these important issues which of course means you care deeply about others but, how can you do something and ensure that the solution comes from your heart, that it is an act of God's love through you. That is the real and worthwhile suffering!! You will always think that what you do comes from your heart, as you surrender more and more of your life, you find that you can let more and more of your heart be in you, which often means doing less and less, and being more and more.
It seems like many won't recognize their self betrayal behaviours. That is very unfortunate and that is my understanding of hell. It is not an unknown place with fire, it is a status, a condition of your humanity where your heart is crying to be let out and you won't let it. It is a burning feeling and it brings all sorts of suffering. All the sufferings that the Bible refers to but right here and right now in your life. The saddest aspect of your hell, is that you don't even know you're in it so very often you deny it making it even worse. How much you can bear it will determine when you'll start making your way out...through humility and surrender of course.
Those already in the process of humbling and surrendering are on their way to heaven. Which isn't an place either. It is a status, a condition of your humanity where your heart expresses fully, where God is present through you wholly and you know it, where God loves the world through you and you are aware of being a vehicle of His plan of pure love, which brings enormous joy. Heaven on earth will happen, many will surrender and the earth will be transformed. Declaring yourself as a follower of a particular religion will not be important anymore, the suffering that comes from that debate is part of the non-surrendered you that clings to what you believe, not to what your heart knows. This is the remembrance of the body of Christ, all its members (each of us is a member) will come together and we'll all speak one language: The language of Unconditional Love, which is the language of God. Not matter what you believe, I may still disagree, but I will still love you unconditionally. This is the capacity that Jesus brought to us with his life. By dying in the cross He showed us that it is possible for us to do what seems irrational: Love your own murderers. Through the apostles He was teaching us how to do it, which means not only that we can be like Him, but that by washing our sin we now have a responsibility: We must become Him!! not in the sense of mimicking Him, but by letting God work through us as Jesus did, that is perfect communion...that will be the kingdom of heaven in earth, that will be the restoration of the church, that will be the unification of languages to the one language that matters.